So I at the end of fall semester I had Mr. Bingley wrapped around my finger but new Mr. Darcy still has a hold on my heart that I just can’t shake. So I got rid of Mr. Bingley but I’ve decided just to let whatever is going to happen, happen. I think this semester I should just focus on taking care of myself and everything else will fall into place.
Is it possible that I’m falling for a Mr. Bingley instead of a Mr. Darcy? I honestly can’t decide. You see currently I’m in the middle of a kinda tug-of-war and I believe I’ve let Mr. Bingley win to make my new Mr. Darcy jealous. Wrong of me, I think so but we are only young and reckless once right so why not live a little?!
Ok so wow what a crazy two weeks this has been! This internship has literally killed my soul, early morning, late nights and wardrobe(the department I’m in) has been having to work overtime to get stuff done. But I have to say it was all worth just because of one moment last night. I was massaged by a greek god while basically! There is one guy in the cast who we are going to call Adonis. Muscles galore and sooo much man holy crap! After the cast party we took of the performers back to the hotel and we hung with them all. Some how it turned into a massage party and Adonis massaged me! I couldn’t breathe because of my excitement! And let me clarify, nothing happened it was just a massage but Jesus that was an amazing massage!
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So this year is apparently going to be a year of growth! This is the year I’m going to learn how to be alone and its not going to be easy. I’m the type of person that likes to be surrounded by people and have something to talk such as a roommate. But this year I’m the house manager for my sorority so I get my own room and I thought that it was going to be great……not so much. To be perfectly honest I’m miserable! I hate not having a roommate and not really having any friends on the hall. No wonder the RA last year was never around! But even though it is painful and suck major league, I will be a stronger person for it and I just have to keep reminding myself of that.
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So I have decided that it is probably a good thing I don’t have a bf because if I did I would not be able to go to parties and do single stuff. Plus my life is already crazy and filled with drama, I don’t need to add anymore balls to my juggling act. So I’m finally coming to accept Mr. Darcy and Miss Bingley’s dating each other and I think I’m actually getting over my crush, thank the lord! That was just annoying. But I’m going to make a promise to myself right here and now! I am going to be more ok with myself and stop being so afraid of messing up and acting like a fool. I started to watch a new show on fox called “New Girl” and I really like it. I was inspired after watching and I want to be a little more carefree! Not crazy carefree but just enough to stop worrying so much about what people think or will think. I’m a great, funny person and I need to show that side more often!
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I’m a pretty, cute girl of 19 years old and I don’t understand why boys aren’t interested. Wait let me rephrase that! Why aren’t attractive boys interested in me. It just doesn’t make sense and it is extremely annoying to be walking around and seeing all of these girls(who I believe I’m prettier than) having boyfriends. Maybe I should look at it as a good thing that I don’t have the extra stress and drama that comes with a boyfriend. Idk it still makes me sad and believe that I’m not pretty enough to catch the right boy’s eye.
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Ok so I have a very annoying, bitchy friend (haha I know that sounds awful but it is true) who I’m going to call Lydia. Lydia has a problem, she always has to have the attention of every boy and it is SUPER annoying. Anyway, I have another friend who I’m calling Mr. Wickham and we are all in the same major. Last year, I had a huge crush on Mr. Wickham but now he’s like a brother to me. So, Mr. Wickham now likes Lydia and Lydia “claims” to likeMr. Wickham. They are being really secretive about it and only Jane and I know. Lydia says that it would be awkward to show their emotions for each other but Mr. Wickham wants to let people know that they like each other. No one is going to judge or even care to be honest. I think Mr. Wickham is too sweet to be chasing after Lydia and he doesn’t know that she is evil and needs soooooo much attention. Ugh! I feel so bad for him but I’m afraid to tell him what I think about the situation cause I can be a little blunt sometimes so my advice could be taken the wrong way. Ugh Poor Mr. Wickham! Oh and Mr. Darcy is def dating Miss Bingley :( A tad heart breaking but I’m sure it will be ok! I just wish for once I am the girl that people are jealous of!
Is it alright to be looking and kinda crushing on to guys at once? Why not right?! Well since I have come to realize that I might never be able to be with Mr. Darcy maybe I should stop looking and hoping for him and start looking at other possibilities. Today while I was running around like a nutter butter, I ran into my friend and crush from last year who I’m calling Westley. He is really cute and I brought him to one of my sorority function last year. We had lots of fun (not “fun” but just normal laughing fun with a little awkward thrown in)! Maybe I should turn my attention towards him. Well I’m off to class, blog you all later!
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Today was the first day of classes. The day started off great! Mr. Darcy is in my first class of the day looking fine as always. And I must give myself props cause I actually went up and talked to him (which I never would have done last year). Last year, when I talked to him I sounded like a muttering idiot. Anyway, I talked to him. So I was feeling pretty good going into my second class which is going to be a blast! Then came time for the third class of the day which I also have with Mr. Darcy. Now at the end of my freshman fall semester Mr. Darcy and Miss Bingley hooked and had a thing for each other. Then for the spring semester Miss Bingley studied abroad in London. I guess in my mind, I had hoped that their “thing” would sizzle out because she was here last semester. Well, I was definitely WRONG. They still have a thing for each other. My heart just broke in two. Now, trust me when I say that I know this is not the end of the world but I just really wanted him to like me. But I just you never know what a person thinking, so maybe…. My friend, who we will call Charlotte, told me the Mr. Darcy was staring at me and smiled when it was my turn to introduce myself to all the new majors. I don’t know if Charlotte told me the truth or not but maybe, just maybe somewhere inside Mr. Darcy he actually likes me. And to top this all of Miss Bingley is SUPER nice and I really like her. Last year, she totally intimiated me but this year she came over and hugged me saying that she is soo excited to work with me. UGH!!! This sucks! Why can’t I just get over this crush!!!!
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So even though I still have a HUGE crush on H who I’m going to refer to as Mr. Darcy, I met a guy yesterday who was awesome and he seemed just my type except for one minor detail, he has a girlfriend. Ugh, story of my life!!! It seems whenever I like a guy he is one of three things: interested in someone else, not interested at all, or has a girlfriend. AWESOME! When will it be my turn, just wondering.
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So today was actually a really good day! I got to sleep in late and I just dressed in a really cute orange skirt (have to represent my school color) and a sorority stitch letter shirt. I did my make-up and left for work. When I got to work all of these transfer students were in the building and my friend, who we are going to call Westley, was standing in front of the entrance to my office. Let me explain a little bit about Westley, I also had a crush on and brought him to one of my sorority’s functions, at the end of the night I was at least expecting a hug but no I got a high-five ugh anyway. So I said hello to him and went to knock on the door so my manager could let me in. Well he thought I was going for a hug so he picked me up and hugged me. That was really nice and it def made me happy. Then about two hours into work my dreamy Mr. Darcy showed up. He said that he was coming just to say hello to whoever was working but I think he actually looking for a girl who I’ll call Miss Bingley. Slightly broke my heart but I still was really excited to see him. I was impressed that he even stopped by to say hello to me. When he left, one of my manager said “I think he likes you” and I just laughed and said “I don’t think so. I’m pretty he thinks Miss Bingley” and she replied “I don’t think so, he looked pretty interested in you.” My heart fluttered. Could Mr. Darcy actually like me!?
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Hi everyone,
Classes start on Wednesday and I’m really excited. My first class of the day will be with my crush. His name is Hunter and I started liking him at the end of last year. I thought my crush fizzle and die during the summer since I wouldn’t see him on a regular basic. But NO, my stupid crush lasted the summer and now I’m all a flutter to see him, even though I know if I continue to like him its only going to crush me because the fact of the matter is he doesn’t even notice me. He sees me as a classmate and a friend. Great… and to top of this class, not only will my crush be there but the guy (who I didn’t like in the first place and to be honestly I’m out of his league, he’s a 4-5. I’m at least a 7) that I drunkenly hooked-up with and lost my v card to is also in this class. Ugh…. I will def let you know how that one goes.
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